Honest post … life can be rough sometimes. For no apparent reason.
I want this space to be a space where we can all share the bad with the good. So here goes … despite being a bloody good coach for others (though I say so myself) I don’t have it all together either and today has been particularly difficult. There’s no reason why today of all todays should be harder than the today that was yesterday, but it is.
That’s emotions for you, they creep out when you least expect them.
Today found me sitting in my car on my own in the Target parking lot, with tears streaming down my face, silently crying. The only thing I can figure is that the anniversary of this craziness is this week (I mark it as March 12th as I pulled my kids out of school a day before they closed), and that anniversary has it’s own invisible weight.
All that connection and peopleyness, missing for a whole year. I sat in the car and let the weariness and anger and grief at our lost year (and likely more months to come), wash through me. And now … now I feel a bit lighter, not much, but a tiny smidge. Holding the feelings and creating a dam, takes too much energy.
We are all on this journey together. So if you are on this journey too .. whatever your journey is … you’ll know that sometimes it isn’t pretty and that’s ok. Sometimes, in fact many times (especially now), life isn’t the perky, well-manicured presentation that we see on Facebook or IG. It’s not the perfect culmination of events that we wish it was.
So don’t doubt yourself and whether you are doing it right, or think that someone else is doing it better. Everyone is doing it differently and we are all doing our best … though that best might look pretty rough at times … that’s ok … it’s normal.
As a friend recently said “Some of us are clawing and heaving and sweating and fighting our way along this path. And that makes us f***ing heroes.”
Sending love to all. Huge hugs.